Some SMS Are Not Needed To Be Sent (It's not short after all)

I guess you will be ignoring me for good. You will be missed a lot. I never had such joy in my life that's why it is so hard to just take for granted all that has been. I made a pact to myself that i will give it all no matter what. Hence, my great sorrow. I really want to endure this. I cannot regret about what is happening. I knew this was a big emotional gamble. If it turned out what we wanted, well thank God. If not, then sorry me. I guess all will boil down to, kung kayo kayo saying.

It hurts that i cannot even feel my legs. Hurting while numbing.  Cannot even feel anger towards you, it is all longing. If i have to blame you, it's because you are such a great person which i kept telling you(you even call it boladas). You showed how real you are and i loved it so much. There is nothing i could have asked for. Now it hurts cause i don't have the luxury of being with you.

Yup i am so aware you are going through rough time. I respect the space you are asking. But my emptiness got the best of me again. I just want to show you that i will be there for you during good and bad times. I want you to feel that it's not all about having fun, but showing support. If my presence is not needed, which i think is what happening, i am so sorry about that. I am so sorry for all the pressures and discomfort  i made.

If we could turn things from the start once again, hell yes i will do it over and over. It's the best i ever had. Believe it or not, sounds cliche but, you are the best person i ever been with. If only i could tell the whole world how great you are, no single hesitation, i would. Even my best friend tells me, i am one lucky man for having you.

I am taking so much care of you for the reason i don't want you to feel bad again. I don't want you to be hurt. I want you to only shed the tears of joy. If you are to have your last chapter of your life, i want me to be part of it. That wine, i am so determined to fulfill that.

If i am adding discomfort to you now, i am so sorry. Whenever i say sorry, i mean it. I am trying my very best to be the man you deserve.