I am just so thankful to know you are doing fine! I'm at peace. Yes, i have my kid to think of and i am certain that's not taken for granted.
You just don't have any idea, well i know you do, how easily my feelings turn from sadness into joy when i get to communicate with you. You are such contagious. My joy is in you. I feel i can treasure you in so many ways for a single reason. Yes, there are walls and even mountains to hurdle but i don't mind. I learned to be a well wisher.
I know you are aware of how grateful i am just to see you again for years. It started from curiousity of how you are doing until without knowing i will experience the most magical moments i've been. You are such a person i can never imagine before would exist. Someone who's character is everywhere but still stood on her ground.
Allow me to be amazed by your beauty, your wit, your humor and you as a person every single day of my life.
I will do my best to be always there for you.
I will keep on believing, dreaming and loving for that reason.
Lunes, Oktubre 31, 2011
Sabado, Oktubre 29, 2011
Wait For You
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.
Makapagkwento Nga!
Kumusta ka na kaya?
Syempre sana magaan ang pakiramdam mo. Ako, ok naman siguro ako. Nagigising pa din ng 5:30 kahit anong oras matulog. Bihira na din makapag baon. Late na kasi bumangon. Dami kong times na inattempt mag paramdam simula nung huli. Kulang nalang pindutin yung send. Di ko nalang tinutuloy kasi baka lalo lang mapasama.( baho ng katabi ko). Minsan naiisip ko pumunta ng tiangge kaso wala nang thrill. Baka makakita ako ng damit dun di ko mapigilan bilhin ko kaso pagkatapos wala. Alangan naman isuot ko yun. Kalbo o trim? Naiisip ko kakainggit mga taong nakakahalubilo mo ngayon. Swerte nila. Kung bakit swerte? Basta!
Dito nalang binubuhos sa blog ang mga naiisip, mga ikkwento tsaka outlet na din to.
Ikaw? Kumusta ka? Top agent pa din? Apply ka na ng team lead! Tagal ka nang qualified dun. Yaw mo lang maniwala. Todo huddle pa din ba? Nakakapag exercise ka pa din? Nakapag pa spa ka na? Kumusta na kaya ang mga tawa mo? Yang tawang yan masyadong mahal. Sobrang hinahanap hanap ko! Hayys nakakamiss talaga. Lam mo yung pakiramdam na lahat nalang ata ng bagay sa paligid ipapaalala sayo yung masasayang oras? Grocery, laundry. Tulad ngayon dumi ng kuko ko. Nagpapaalala pa yun. Pag nagkaron ng pagkakataon na makita ka ulit, naku durog ang buto sa akap! Baka maiyak pa ako! One time pala naglalakad ako imimeet ko yung friends ko, nung malapit na ko bigla ako naluha. Tulo talaga. Ayun buti napunas ko bago nila ko makita. Kagabi din kailangan ko magtaxi kaso hirap makasakay kasi ang trapik, may nangontrata. 350 singil! Sabi ko sa driver, kapag ikaw nangailangan tapos gipit ka, wag na wag ka magrereklamo ha. Ayos ba mga natutunan ko sayo?
Yung tambakol wala na!
Syempre sana magaan ang pakiramdam mo. Ako, ok naman siguro ako. Nagigising pa din ng 5:30 kahit anong oras matulog. Bihira na din makapag baon. Late na kasi bumangon. Dami kong times na inattempt mag paramdam simula nung huli. Kulang nalang pindutin yung send. Di ko nalang tinutuloy kasi baka lalo lang mapasama.( baho ng katabi ko). Minsan naiisip ko pumunta ng tiangge kaso wala nang thrill. Baka makakita ako ng damit dun di ko mapigilan bilhin ko kaso pagkatapos wala. Alangan naman isuot ko yun. Kalbo o trim? Naiisip ko kakainggit mga taong nakakahalubilo mo ngayon. Swerte nila. Kung bakit swerte? Basta!
Dito nalang binubuhos sa blog ang mga naiisip, mga ikkwento tsaka outlet na din to.
Ikaw? Kumusta ka? Top agent pa din? Apply ka na ng team lead! Tagal ka nang qualified dun. Yaw mo lang maniwala. Todo huddle pa din ba? Nakakapag exercise ka pa din? Nakapag pa spa ka na? Kumusta na kaya ang mga tawa mo? Yang tawang yan masyadong mahal. Sobrang hinahanap hanap ko! Hayys nakakamiss talaga. Lam mo yung pakiramdam na lahat nalang ata ng bagay sa paligid ipapaalala sayo yung masasayang oras? Grocery, laundry. Tulad ngayon dumi ng kuko ko. Nagpapaalala pa yun. Pag nagkaron ng pagkakataon na makita ka ulit, naku durog ang buto sa akap! Baka maiyak pa ako! One time pala naglalakad ako imimeet ko yung friends ko, nung malapit na ko bigla ako naluha. Tulo talaga. Ayun buti napunas ko bago nila ko makita. Kagabi din kailangan ko magtaxi kaso hirap makasakay kasi ang trapik, may nangontrata. 350 singil! Sabi ko sa driver, kapag ikaw nangailangan tapos gipit ka, wag na wag ka magrereklamo ha. Ayos ba mga natutunan ko sayo?
Yung tambakol wala na!
Huwebes, Oktubre 27, 2011
10,000 Misses and A Question
Around 6pm till around 730pm. It's the time of the day that i am supposed to be talking to you. I am missing you so much.
I miss your smile.
I miss your smile.
I miss the way you laugh.
I miss it when you do the tsunami walk.
I miss it when you do the tsunami walk.
I miss the punches and pinches.
I miss it when you roll your eyes.
I miss it when you scold me.
I miss your thoughtful ways of taking care of me.
I miss your dreams and ambitions.
I miss your jokes.
I miss laughing with you.
I miss cooking for you.
I miss your dishes.
I miss those breakfasts.
I miss the eggs.
I miss dads and dampa.
I miss your laundry.
I miss the smell of your clothes( cabinet's smell).
I miss your scent, your d&g and your ginger white.
I miss our small business.
I miss your badminton attire.
I miss the way you talk non stop.
I miss the calls.
I miss siomai.
I miss when you feel irritated by commuters.
I miss it when you curse, it's the loveliest sounding curse and crispiest i heard.
I miss waiting for you at our rendezvous.
I miss your coach, the huddle.
I miss your stats.
I miss the way you react when i make you believe i achieved something only to tell you i was just dreaming.
I miss serving you.
I miss doing errands for you.
I miss researching for your kid's homework.
I miss the pick up lines. tuesday ka ba? Kasi monday ako. Ikaw ang bukas ko.
I miss smelling your armpit. There is nothing really to smell in there.
I miss your slap.
I miss looking at the future with you.
I miss buying women's clothing.
I miss being feminine.
I miss looking for stuff you might love.
I miss being looking stupid when i did something wrong.
I miss your arms around my arms.
I miss your head over my shoulder.
I miss caressing your hands.
I miss how you look, everytime i see you i am always amazed by your beauty.
I miss how humble you are, how down to earth you are.
I miss you being the mom i look for my child.
I miss carrying you on my back up the stairs.
I miss it when you go crazy and peel the paint off the walls, switching the lights off along the hall.
I miss basta.
I miss watching you play dashes and spas.
I miss it when you walk barefoot.
I miss it when you are lazy.
I miss it when you say you don't believe i miss you.
I miss your high talent fee.
I miss the hayys.
I miss it when you poke my butt while getting off the jeep.
I miss the red and orange colors.
I miss the haircolor without landi.
I miss that gray, blue toenails.
I miss morning, ingats and goodnight. I miss going to bed a little late for you.
I miss getting up early for you.
I miss your voice, that motherly voice. I even miss letter.
I miss the anticipation of being with you.
I miss dialing your number.
I miss your caller id.
I miss that moment when i keep on talking while you are already off the line.
I miss singing for you.
I miss taking care of you.
I miss those gossips.
I miss how sassy you are.
I miss watching movies with you.
I miss staring at you while you're asleep.
I miss travelling home.
I miss dancing with you.
I miss playing my guitar for you.
I miss isa dalawa tatlo apat, alam kong gusto mo ko.
I miss holding our hands.
I miss being there for you.
I miss the way you make fun of your voice.
I miss it when we remenisce about our childhood.
I miss it when you please me.
I miss it when you don't care less.
I miss you being the lady that adds reason for me to love.
I miss being with you
I miss being loved
I miss that most magical moment in my life when you surprisingly texted, "buksan mo pinto!".
God! I miss you so much!
I miss it when you roll your eyes.
I miss it when you scold me.
I miss your thoughtful ways of taking care of me.
I miss your dreams and ambitions.
I miss your jokes.
I miss laughing with you.
I miss cooking for you.
I miss your dishes.
I miss those breakfasts.
I miss the eggs.
I miss dads and dampa.
I miss your laundry.
I miss the smell of your clothes( cabinet's smell).
I miss your scent, your d&g and your ginger white.
I miss our small business.
I miss your badminton attire.
I miss the way you talk non stop.
I miss the calls.
I miss siomai.
I miss when you feel irritated by commuters.
I miss it when you curse, it's the loveliest sounding curse and crispiest i heard.
I miss waiting for you at our rendezvous.
I miss your coach, the huddle.
I miss your stats.
I miss the way you react when i make you believe i achieved something only to tell you i was just dreaming.
I miss serving you.
I miss doing errands for you.
I miss researching for your kid's homework.
I miss the pick up lines. tuesday ka ba? Kasi monday ako. Ikaw ang bukas ko.
I miss smelling your armpit. There is nothing really to smell in there.
I miss your slap.
I miss looking at the future with you.
I miss buying women's clothing.
I miss being feminine.
I miss looking for stuff you might love.
I miss being looking stupid when i did something wrong.
I miss your arms around my arms.
I miss your head over my shoulder.
I miss caressing your hands.
I miss how you look, everytime i see you i am always amazed by your beauty.
I miss how humble you are, how down to earth you are.
I miss you being the mom i look for my child.
I miss carrying you on my back up the stairs.
I miss it when you go crazy and peel the paint off the walls, switching the lights off along the hall.
I miss basta.
I miss watching you play dashes and spas.
I miss it when you walk barefoot.
I miss it when you are lazy.
I miss it when you say you don't believe i miss you.
I miss your high talent fee.
I miss the hayys.
I miss it when you poke my butt while getting off the jeep.
I miss the red and orange colors.
I miss the haircolor without landi.
I miss that gray, blue toenails.
I miss morning, ingats and goodnight. I miss going to bed a little late for you.
I miss getting up early for you.
I miss your voice, that motherly voice. I even miss letter.
I miss the anticipation of being with you.
I miss dialing your number.
I miss your caller id.
I miss that moment when i keep on talking while you are already off the line.
I miss singing for you.
I miss taking care of you.
I miss those gossips.
I miss how sassy you are.
I miss watching movies with you.
I miss staring at you while you're asleep.
I miss travelling home.
I miss dancing with you.
I miss playing my guitar for you.
I miss isa dalawa tatlo apat, alam kong gusto mo ko.
I miss holding our hands.
I miss being there for you.
I miss the way you make fun of your voice.
I miss it when we remenisce about our childhood.
I miss it when you please me.
I miss it when you don't care less.
I miss you being the lady that adds reason for me to love.
I miss being with you
I miss being loved
I miss that most magical moment in my life when you surprisingly texted, "buksan mo pinto!".
God! I miss you so much!
How's your abs?
Some SMS Are Not Needed To Be Sent (It's not short after all)
I guess you will be ignoring me for good. You will be missed a lot. I never had such joy in my life that's why it is so hard to just take for granted all that has been. I made a pact to myself that i will give it all no matter what. Hence, my great sorrow. I really want to endure this. I cannot regret about what is happening. I knew this was a big emotional gamble. If it turned out what we wanted, well thank God. If not, then sorry me. I guess all will boil down to, kung kayo kayo saying.
It hurts that i cannot even feel my legs. Hurting while numbing. Cannot even feel anger towards you, it is all longing. If i have to blame you, it's because you are such a great person which i kept telling you(you even call it boladas). You showed how real you are and i loved it so much. There is nothing i could have asked for. Now it hurts cause i don't have the luxury of being with you.
Yup i am so aware you are going through rough time. I respect the space you are asking. But my emptiness got the best of me again. I just want to show you that i will be there for you during good and bad times. I want you to feel that it's not all about having fun, but showing support. If my presence is not needed, which i think is what happening, i am so sorry about that. I am so sorry for all the pressures and discomfort i made.
If we could turn things from the start once again, hell yes i will do it over and over. It's the best i ever had. Believe it or not, sounds cliche but, you are the best person i ever been with. If only i could tell the whole world how great you are, no single hesitation, i would. Even my best friend tells me, i am one lucky man for having you.
I am taking so much care of you for the reason i don't want you to feel bad again. I don't want you to be hurt. I want you to only shed the tears of joy. If you are to have your last chapter of your life, i want me to be part of it. That wine, i am so determined to fulfill that.
If i am adding discomfort to you now, i am so sorry. Whenever i say sorry, i mean it. I am trying my very best to be the man you deserve.
It hurts that i cannot even feel my legs. Hurting while numbing. Cannot even feel anger towards you, it is all longing. If i have to blame you, it's because you are such a great person which i kept telling you(you even call it boladas). You showed how real you are and i loved it so much. There is nothing i could have asked for. Now it hurts cause i don't have the luxury of being with you.
Yup i am so aware you are going through rough time. I respect the space you are asking. But my emptiness got the best of me again. I just want to show you that i will be there for you during good and bad times. I want you to feel that it's not all about having fun, but showing support. If my presence is not needed, which i think is what happening, i am so sorry about that. I am so sorry for all the pressures and discomfort i made.
If we could turn things from the start once again, hell yes i will do it over and over. It's the best i ever had. Believe it or not, sounds cliche but, you are the best person i ever been with. If only i could tell the whole world how great you are, no single hesitation, i would. Even my best friend tells me, i am one lucky man for having you.
I am taking so much care of you for the reason i don't want you to feel bad again. I don't want you to be hurt. I want you to only shed the tears of joy. If you are to have your last chapter of your life, i want me to be part of it. That wine, i am so determined to fulfill that.
If i am adding discomfort to you now, i am so sorry. Whenever i say sorry, i mean it. I am trying my very best to be the man you deserve.
Listening While Reading Between Lines
It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If i could see that smile
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me
Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
I hope and I pray Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay
Lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling
'cause my sun doesn't shine without you
This is more for me than for you
I finally see there's no substitute for what we have
Do you know how much I love you?
And what we share I can't forget
A love like yours I'll never let just slip away
Do whatever I can do to get back to you
Have you ever seen a flower that never blooms?
Seen a starless night without the moon
Well that's me without you
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If i could see that smile
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me
Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
I hope and I pray Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay
Lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling
'cause my sun doesn't shine without you
This is more for me than for you
I finally see there's no substitute for what we have
Do you know how much I love you?
And what we share I can't forget
A love like yours I'll never let just slip away
Do whatever I can do to get back to you
Have you ever seen a flower that never blooms?
Seen a starless night without the moon
Well that's me without you
Di Ko Alam Ang Gagamiting Pamagat...
Anuman ang iyong pinagdadaanan, sana'y iyong malagpasan.
Nakaka bingi ang iyong katahimikan.
Tila walang saysay ang mga tinig sa paligid.
Umaasa ako na sana'y sa muli mong pagpaparamdam ay puno na ng ngiti't halakhak ang bawat sms messages at mga tawag.
Di bale nang di maintindihan ang mga sinasabi basta't ang tinig sa kabilang linya ay puro kasiyahan lamang.
Nangungulila ako sa mga bagay na inaasam asam ko araw araw.
Ang matulog ng may mga ngiti sa labi, gumising sa tinig ng mrt, hanggang sa pagpapaalala ng pagiingat.
Ang aking kaligayahan ay simple lamang kaya't kailangang isantabi para bigyang daan ang 'yong isipin.
Wala akong ibang hangad kundi maging masaya ka sa dulo ng isang kwento. Yung kasiyahang tila nanuod ka ng isang maaksiyong pelikula.
Minimithi ko din na sana'y walang poot sa iyong dibdib sa mga oras na ito. Ipagpaumanhin mo kung sakaling di makatulong tong mensahe sayo.
Lubos lamang nangungulila ang remington sa piling ng ita.
Sana'y sa dulo ng paliko likong daan ay payagan mong ako ay naroon at naghihintay.
My First Poem
Damn nabura ko pinaka unang poem. Wala akong ibang copy... Di ko memorized. Gawa ako ng bago sa sunod.
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